To the west of the house in Ohio where
I grew up, beginning at the end of the back yard, was a field. It was,
at the time I lived there, overgrown with blackberry briars. In the summer,
there were wildflowers ¾ daisies, purple
thistles and Queen Anne's lace ¾ and
the air was abuzz with flies and bees. Paths and tunnels through the thorny
thickets offered passage to secret hideouts and adventures.
On the near side of the field was
The Hill, a mound of Earth perhaps three feet high, of uncertain origin,
made bare by the baking sun and the trampling of children's feet. Its heights
provided an ideal bastion for toy soldiers. All summer long I labored to
dig them forts and trenches, devise stratagems and imagine.
To the left of The Hill lay a path
to a large elderberry bush. Early in the summer this bush offered concealing
shade and sported four-inch clusters of white blossoms; later it yielded
innumerable purple berries, small and bittersweet, to our delight.
To the right lay the main path, the
one that traversed the whole field. It was probably no more than two hundred
feet long, yet to my short legs and big imagination it was an almost endless
highway to adventure. In the early spring, the ground midway along its
course became boggy, sometimes widening out into puddles that we called
"ponds" or "lakes." In these august bodies of water, we fished with stick
poles and kite-string lines, catching discarded bottles that for some forgotten
reason were designated "English minnows." The fishing was always cut short
by cold, wet feet.
In the summer, the ground became hard
and dry. Pushing through the matted tangle of underbrush, we could explore
farther. On some sultry mornings we would battle our way to the foundation
of a long abandoned farm building near which, it was rumored, a skeleton
was buried. We excavated energetically on several occasions, but unearthed
only rocks and matted roots.
Beside these ruins stood a gnarled, decaying peach tree,
the source of much sticky sap used for entangling hair and soiling clothes
and the occasional producer of a few small, sour, scarred fruits that gave
pleasure out of all proportion to their quality.
This part of the field was the haunt
of Panhead, an elusive being who wore a kitchen pan turned upside down
for a hat. I never met Panhead and was skeptical of his existence, but
my sister and some of the other neighborhood children claimed his friendship.
Wading further west through tall grass, we would come to a dangerous region
permeated by poison ivy.
There we walked carefully,
sticking to the established trail. If we persisted, we suddenly emerged
into an open space, the beginning of the wider world. The field came to
an abrupt end at a dirt road, beyond which was a vast lawn, bordered by
plantings of asparagus. Across this lawn we could see more fields, streets
and houses.
Beyond my westward vision, my westward
imagination took flight; there were more distant fields and hills and fields
again, opening out onto the lush farms of the Amish country and opening
still further west to vague, wild lands, populated by bears and Indians,
to things yet discovered.
All this is now gone. The dirt road
is paved; the field is somebody's neatly manicured yard. Children live
in the neighborhood still, but these days in the summer there's not much
to do outside and you seldom see them. Maybe they ride bikes or shoot baskets
from the pavement or blast rap music from boom boxes by the swimming pools,
but more likely they're indoors watching TV or playing video games.
There is no wildness in their world, not even of the
imagination. Everything has been tamed, and beyond the neat suburban back
yard lie only more identically neat suburban back yards.