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June 13, 2005
Getting to Know It
Big changes are happening this summer over here at Theory of the Daily, the first of which has been the purchase of our first home. After years of apartment living, I'm finding the reality of the change takes a while to sink in. There is, of course, in my father's words, the awareness of "crushing, lifetime debt," but I still can't say I feel we own the place. I've been tracking little benchmarks that will enable me to determine when I've actually started living here, as opposed to simply inhabiting the space. When I no longer think more about the previous resident's occupation than I do of ours, then we will be living here. When I no longer have to fumble for light switches or consider which path to take to get from point A in the house to point B. When I no longer worry about whether the neighbors are being woken my my early-morning smoothy mixing, my singing along with Emmy Lou Harris CDs, my clumsy dropping of things on floors. But even then it's hard to imagine what actual possession of a house feels like. I still feel a sense of wonder and gratitude every time we turn into the driveway, as if I should be thanking the house for allowing us to enter it.
Posted by Miki at June 13, 2005 08:04 AM